Yesterday, I received a phone call from "Soni" my friend. She is asking for a favor.No not for arranging movie tickets nor class notes. Just for a Doctor. Her father was diagnosed with Cancer. But its yet to be certified by the test reports. Her family wants to keep his father in dark till the test reports. Her father is getting weak day by day.They want to get his test done in AIIMS. So she is asking me for links with Cancer wing in AIIMS. But i do not have any such in the Cancer wing. Yes i do have with Ortho and Neuro as i himself was a patient few years ago. I feel sorry for being in the state of helplessness.
But now what? What can a true friend do except sending sandwiches full of sympathy through cell phone and i am not an exception. I send her a text message that "Not to worry every thing will be fine, now cancer is not a life threatening disease. Its curable.I will pray that your father be healthy soon"
Did i truly meant that? Is cancer just like a viral infection. Few tablets & gone. Is really nothing to worry? Am i a pious person? Certainly not. Then how can i promise to her that if i pray then her father will be healthy. I do not know why i said that. As we are so spontaneous in sending sympathy messages that hardly we stop to scrutinize it first.
The message refresh my memories of the movie Guide. The book "Guide" was written by R.K.Narayan. In the particular scene of the movie "Guide" Dev Anand was trying to convince the villagers that do not trust him as he was not a saint but just a sinner & a prisoner. But the villagers had blind faith on him and insist him to perform a Fast for rain.
The blind faith of near ones prepares him to go through a tug of war with his own charioteer (his intelligence) for cross perusal of the belief that how can it rain if i perform a pooja or fast? and his own horses (the senses) that how will i live without eating food or drinking water it did not rain?
He did satisfy all at the end and perform the fast and finally drought was relaxed.
There were some bad harsh moments in my life too when i cried, weep for help but none came. I still curse, when i am angry, the people who denies and too, when feeling good, bless them .But one thing is clear that i hate "No". I am under a vow that none will go empty hand from my home and for that no one can stop me to run for that infinite demand.
But sometimes I hate being Just Himanshu and not Sai Baba or Mother Teresa. If Dev Anand can do then why cant I?